Aug 22, 2004
Posted at 04:32 pm by tLw5623
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Aug 11, 2004
hay yall! today was the first day of school! haha! i'm in key boarding so i can type this in like 5 min instead of 30min! hahaha! i type REALLY slow! lol anywayz.... megan and sims are in my 1st block! so thats cool and mack and kip are in my 2nd! haha so i have someone to talk to! yay! lol and sara and ruby are in my 3rd block! so i hace someone to sit w/ at lunch! haha i thought i was ganna b all alone! then 4th block i have my bestest friend brittany! hahaha!..... i thought i was ganna get so freakin lost! but its not that confusin! haha and its pretty cool! but yeah sorry i havent been writtin much! i've been busy! o yeah! i miss john! hahaha hes my bff! and he doesnt go to our school anymore! : ( that makes me sad! but its ok! i still talk to him! but i gg! i'll try to write 2 marra! i love you kam! buhbye
Posted at 08:25 pm by tLw5623
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Jul 29, 2004
hay yall... something bad happened two nights ago.... i'm going to try to explain this as best i ca with out mentioning any names and i wish i could but i'd rather not... and no one is really going to understand what i went through exept brendan... ok here it goes.... everyone nos that no one likes me and i have no friends.... even the ppl that call them selves my friends talk really bad a/b me and even the people that tell me that ppl talk a/b me talk bad a/b me.... i mean its really horrible! anyways... it all started when i text someone to ask something ... and i didnt get to b/c someone else got mad and said some things to me...and it really got me thinking (o yeah i was thinking a/b moving to alabama again) anyways.... i was thinking a/b how no one likes me and i have no friends and somethimg else was bothering me.... but like all i had 4 a while was God... and i did something bad and let him down.....and all this really bothered me... and i got really upset! so anyways i tried to go to sleep.... but i couldnt cuz i was crying so hard...and i text kameron but he was already asleep and i had to talk to someone!.... i mean i actually thought a/b pills!!!....i was scared and i was crying so hard that i couldnt breathe... only a few ppl have seen me like that and yeah... it not pretty.... anywayz.... si c called brendan cuz i had talked to him a/b this stuff before ..... and he made me feel better... better enough so that i could at least sleep..... then i went to church today and the lesson was exactlly what i needed to hear.... and then i talked to jason... he always makes me feel better.... and like i no now that god 4 gives me and if i dont have friends then i havent found the right ppl to hang out with...and even thoi've let God down, if i'm j/ willing to put myself out on the line 4 Him, he will use me....o yeah! brendan also made me realize that if i did move then i would feel exactlly the same as i do hear so i'm staying.... and i no that he 2 has said awful things a/b me too...but he is still my friend and he will always be hear 4 me.... but the reason i wrote this is to say if you no someone that has no friends... please be nice to them.... because it could be the one little thing that you say that could push them over the edge.... and ecpecially if there are romors going around a/b them, because alot of ppl wont talk to me because of some romors, but God 4 gave me and them... and you should too b/c the romors may not be true.. but even if they are everyone deserves another chance... i have alot of problems so please pray 4 me! i love you kam! god bless- danny
Posted at 10:50 am by tLw5623
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Jul 25, 2004
hay yall...me and kam had a talk on the phone and i feel like shit now!I MEAN I REALLY AM THE WORST GIRLFRIEND EVER!!!i feel soooo bad! and if i screw up again me and kam are through so i cant do anything wrong! cuz i CANT lose him! i have to actually think before i do things! and i mean really think a/b it! i mean like tonight was the first night i actually heard what he was saying... like other ppl have told me before and so has he....i guess i j/ didnt wont to listen.... iono but it was the absolute WORST feeling hearing the truth i mean it was like sitting there stairing me in the face! i hated it but i really needed to understand what he was telling me.... i mean i wont do anything again and kameron... i'm so sorry! i really am! but thats all i have to say right now... i'm going to think a/b some things... i love you kam! buhbye
Posted at 10:49 pm by tLw5623
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Jul 24, 2004
hay yall! brennan came over at like 11 and we watched chasing liberty.... it was good but i like the other mandy moore movies! haha but then we talked and i looked at the clock and it was 4 something!!! so we went to bed and we woke up at like 10:45....then we went swimming 4 a lil while and then we went to the mall! i got new cloths! haha it was awesome...but then we were ganna go 4wheeler riding in canton but my daddy and my sissy took it and then she had to leave so we might do it some other time.... but she is sooooo sweet.... i hope we can hang out again and get to be better friends....but i have to go i love you kam! buhbye
Posted at 06:54 pm by tLw5623
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Jul 23, 2004
hay yall! i havent written in a while! sorry! haha i j/ keep 4 getting! but anywayz.... me and jo were in the jackson 2004 pagent.....i got a dress that was strapless and black w/ pink pokadots and it is soooo cute and this lady at inside story was ganna let me "model" it and my moms going to Hawaii and she needs stuff to wear so she decided to buy it! haha new dress! anyways.... my grandmother did my hair and i no it doesnt sound that great but she used to be a hair dresser and she did good and britt and megan came! haha i felt so special! lol! thanx yall! but yeah me and jo didnt win but i wasnt expectin to it was j/ a good experience... ya no? but yeah..... it was cool..... and then kam (he came 2) meg and britt came over and it was cool.....i bought jo's cell phone so i have a nokia 3585 and i'm like obsessed with it! haha..... but anywayz like 2 days ago me and kam got into a fight and he said we needed to take a break and "think" about some stuff.... and i like freaked.... haha cuz i really couldnt loose him! i mean i love him so much! and i was already thinking a/b moving to alabama.... and i was sooo close... but to tell yall the truth even if we did break up i couldnt move up there and leave him! i mean i would have such a good life up there the ppl i was ganna live w/ are rich and every time i go up there i get EVERYTHING i want! and i have ALOT of friends up there! i mean down here i'm like poor and everybody hates me.... or doesnt like me... i mean if i really think a/b it i'm a loser... but i want all that if i can have kameron! no one understands how much i really care a/b him! but anywayz...when i went to the show we talked everything out so we're ok now.... but yeah anywayz.... i invited brennan to stn w/ me tonight (shes kam's ex) and i no i'm not her favorite person in the world but i would really like to be her friend and she said she would so shes comin over later tonight.... its ganna be kinda akward but i think it'll work out... like her and her best friend were going through something that i went through w/ jo and i was where she was and i no exactly how she felt and it feels like crap! i mean i really dont think me and jo have completly worked things out and i really dont think we will.... we j/ kinda drifted apart... i went through the same thing w/ britt too i mean we are still friends but we use to be unseparable and we drifted apart and she found kk..... but anyways... i hope that things will work out where me and brennan can be friends.... but anywayz.... everything worked out w/ sims... i dont no if i told yall but something happened and he got mad and quit the band and all this crap that i'm not ganna get into but he's my friend now... we arent as close as we were and i dont think we will every be that close again but either way hes still my friend..... but anyways... my daddys back... joy! but my parents are leaving 4 Hawaii soon so that will be cool.... and my sis is going to alabama... i decided not to go.... but my mom has to have someone stay with me..... i'll prolly stay at jos house alot..... but its ganna suck cuz i'm not ganna have any money and no rides to go anywhere but its ok...... but i have to go cuz we are suppost to be having "family time" i have been trying to avoid them but i cant seem to hide! haha i cant wait till brenn comes cuz maybe they'll leave me alone! well i'll write and tell yall how everything goes! i love you kameron! : ) buhbye
Posted at 07:53 pm by tLw5623
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Jul 11, 2004
hay yall! i havent written in a while sorry! i've been really busy and my internet broke.... when we have that big storm the lightning fried my computer.... anywayz.... i got ALL the money 4 my pagent! haha yay! my dad is outta town so my mommy is taking me shopping for it! NEW CLOTHS!!!! haha i'm exited and she said i can get my nails done and crap! anywayz..... i went to camp living stones and it was sooooooo much fun! we went repealing down the side of a mountain! it was fun! i was the first one to go! haha i'm so brave! : ) and then the next day we did the ropes course then we went caving! omgah! i'm not scared of the dark! haha yay! see we had to get over this mud wall and we had to hold hands and we couldnt talk! but...... we had to turn off our flashlights! so we were in COMPLETE darkness! and of course i cried but i got over it! after we got out! haha but i'm really not scared anymore! anywayz... then we went white water rafting! it was fun and i didnt die! haha i was soooo scared but i didnt fall out so its all good! but i'm going back w/ my church to do it again! it was the okoee or something haha eveyone nos i cant spell! anywayz i made some new friends! maddy! she is soooooo sweet and adam and brandon and alan and james and josh and blake and a few others! most of them live in gorgia.....they are so nice! but yeah jo made a new friend and it didnt bother me but then they ignored me like the WHOLE time! i mean your best frind is suppost to notice when somethings wrong.... and everyone else did exept for her! and i was going through a hard time my grandfather was about to die and a few other things i cant mention and i wanted her to be there.... but she wasnt.... but you no i asked god to help me get over it and not be mad and i'm not anymore.... so thats good..... but anywayz i got a new phone so it acctually works now! and my grandpa had surgery and hes ganna make it so i'm happy bout that........haha but yeah i gg but i think thats all i had to say anywayz......... so i'll right lata..........luv yall buhbye!
Posted at 05:41 pm by tLw5623
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Jun 30, 2004
hay yall! i j/ got back from camp! it really wasnt as bad as i thought it would be... me jo britt kristin andi sb melissa and crystal played bs every night in mine and jos room it was so fun! but it like rained every day and we had to ride our scooters every where! the dance routines were kinda hard but the cheers were soooo easy! i really didnt want to come home.... like to my house but i did wanna come back to madison cuz i missed my friends and my bed and kameron haha..... but yeah it was ok....but in 4 days i leave again to go on a church thing for 5 days and my cell doesnt work there it sux! but its going to be fun.... but i really have to hurry and get sponsers for my pagent so if anyone nos anybody hoo will sponser me PLEASE let me no! anywayz.... i really dont have anything else to say so i'll write later.... i love you kam! haha buhbye
Posted at 08:18 pm by tLw5623
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Jun 24, 2004
hay yall! i got acepted into the pagent!!!!! i'm soooo exited i can't wait! it's on July 18! i already have my dress... i got it yesterday.... i wanted a different one ...but my mom's a loser....haha but anyways...... i leave for camp in 2 days! i dont want to go... it's ganna be a nightmare! i mean EVERY one is going to be fighting!.... but o well i'll j/ try to make the most of it.... but yeah not that much has happened since i last wrote......... i thought some ppl were my friends but i thought wrong..... but you no thats ok.... everybody talks a/b me and i hate it! i mean everyone thinks i'm some slut or something..... but i'm really not i mean i wouldnt go passed kissing....... iono i'm still kinda upset.. but i will get over it.... j/ not anytime soon... haha i'm such a drama queen! lol... but yeah i'm deffinatlly NOT moving! haha i love kameron and i could NEVER leave him! and i have 3 BEST friends (britt jo and andi) and i couldnt leave them either! so i guess i'm ganna stay in mississippi... at least 4 the next year! but i'm ok with that! but i gg to wal-mart i prob. wont have time to write until i'm back so i'll talk to yall on thurs.! i love yall and kameron! haha buhbye!
Posted at 11:42 am by tLw5623
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Jun 19, 2004
hay yall! i'm at cups w/ kam and sims and they are in the other room and i'm bord so i desided to write cuz i have nothing else to do... anywayz i might go to jubile jam later but i'm not quite sure... i went to the pagent information session and we found out what you have to do and stuff and i have to get $200 or something in two weeks if i even get accepted in to it i'll find out by next wednesday... i wont be disappointed if i dont i mean i'm not even expecting to win i'm just doing it for the experience cuz i've never done anything like this before.... but anywayz... but yeah haha i think britt is mad at me but iono i'm kinda considering moving back to alabama but i'm prob. not going to iono i j/ have alot of ppl that care a/b me up there and well yeah.... iono i think i'm j/ in a mood cuz me and my mom had the biggest fight and then she said somethings i no she didnt mean but it still hurt..... yesterday i went w/ jo to justins game and justine was there and we went up to the football stands and she kept walking up there and we would j/ walk away haha it was so funny but justin called us and like bitched us out but its all good then brett came and picked us up and took us to o'charleys and pain for us so it was cool then we went riding in northbay then we went home and then we went over to my house and swam till like 3 or something and yeah it was pretty fun then we like went up to tylers for like 2 minutes then we left so yeah but i'm ganna go now cuz i have nothing else to say.... buhbye i luv yall!
Posted at 02:53 pm by tLw5623
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