hay yall... something bad happened two nights ago.... i'm going to try to explain this as best i ca with out mentioning any names and i wish i could but i'd rather not... and no one is really going to understand what i went through exept brendan... ok here it goes.... everyone nos that no one likes me and i have no friends.... even the ppl that call them selves my friends talk really bad a/b me and even the people that tell me that ppl talk a/b me talk bad a/b me.... i mean its really horrible! anyways... it all started when i text someone to ask something ... and i didnt get to b/c someone else got mad and said some things to me...and it really got me thinking (o yeah i was thinking a/b moving to alabama again) anyways.... i was thinking a/b how no one likes me and i have no friends and somethimg else was bothering me.... but like all i had 4 a while was God... and i did something bad and let him down.....and all this really bothered me... and i got really upset! so anyways i tried to go to sleep.... but i couldnt cuz i was crying so hard...and i text kameron but he was already asleep and i had to talk to someone!.... i mean i actually thought a/b pills!!!....i was scared and i was crying so hard that i couldnt breathe... only a few ppl have seen me like that and yeah... it not pretty.... anywayz.... si c called brendan cuz i had talked to him a/b this stuff before ..... and he made me feel better... better enough so that i could at least sleep..... then i went to church today and the lesson was exactlly what i needed to hear.... and then i talked to jason... he always makes me feel better.... and like i no now that god 4 gives me and if i dont have friends then i havent found the right ppl to hang out with...and even thoi've let God down, if i'm j/ willing to put myself out on the line 4 Him, he will use me....o yeah! brendan also made me realize that if i did move then i would feel exactlly the same as i do hear so i'm staying.... and i no that he 2 has said awful things a/b me too...but he is still my friend and he will always be hear 4 me.... but the reason i wrote this is to say if you no someone that has no friends... please be nice to them.... because it could be the one little thing that you say that could push them over the edge.... and ecpecially if there are romors going around a/b them, because alot of ppl wont talk to me because of some romors, but God 4 gave me and them... and you should too b/c the romors may not be true.. but even if they are everyone deserves another chance... i have alot of problems so please pray 4 me! i love you kam! god bless- danny
