hay yall! i havent written in a while! sorry! haha i j/ keep 4 getting! but anywayz.... me and jo were in the jackson 2004 pagent.....i got a dress that was strapless and black w/ pink pokadots and it is soooo cute and this lady at inside story was ganna let me "model" it and my moms going to Hawaii and she needs stuff to wear so she decided to buy it! haha new dress! anyways.... my grandmother did my hair and i no it doesnt sound that great but she used to be a hair dresser and she did good and britt and megan came! haha i felt so special! lol! thanx yall! but yeah me and jo didnt win but i wasnt expectin to it was j/ a good experience... ya no? but yeah..... it was cool..... and then kam (he came 2) meg and britt came over and it was cool.....i bought jo's cell phone so i have a nokia 3585 and i'm like obsessed with it! haha..... but anywayz like 2 days ago me and kam got into a fight and he said we needed to take a break and "think" about some stuff.... and i like freaked.... haha cuz i really couldnt loose him! i mean i love him so much! and i was already thinking a/b moving to alabama.... and i was sooo close... but to tell yall the truth even if we did break up i couldnt move up there and leave him! i mean i would have such a good life up there the ppl i was ganna live w/ are rich and every time i go up there i get EVERYTHING i want! and i have ALOT of friends up there! i mean down here i'm like poor and everybody hates me.... or doesnt like me... i mean if i really think a/b it i'm a loser... but i want all that if i can have kameron! no one understands how much i really care a/b him! but anywayz...when i went to the show we talked everything out so we're ok now.... but yeah anywayz.... i invited brennan to stn w/ me tonight (shes kam's ex) and i no i'm not her favorite person in the world but i would really like to be her friend and she said she would so shes comin over later tonight.... its ganna be kinda akward but i think it'll work out... like her and her best friend were going through something that i went through w/ jo and i was where she was and i no exactly how she felt and it feels like crap! i mean i really dont think me and jo have completly worked things out and i really dont think we will.... we j/ kinda drifted apart... i went through the same thing w/ britt too i mean we are still friends but we use to be unseparable and we drifted apart and she found kk..... but anyways... i hope that things will work out where me and brennan can be friends.... but anywayz.... everything worked out w/ sims... i dont no if i told yall but something happened and he got mad and quit the band and all this crap that i'm not ganna get into but he's my friend now... we arent as close as we were and i dont think we will every be that close again but either way hes still my friend..... but anyways... my daddys back... joy! but my parents are leaving 4 Hawaii soon so that will be cool.... and my sis is going to alabama... i decided not to go.... but my mom has to have someone stay with me..... i'll prolly stay at jos house alot..... but its ganna suck cuz i'm not ganna have any money and no rides to go anywhere but its ok...... but i have to go cuz we are suppost to be having "family time" i have been trying to avoid them but i cant seem to hide! haha i cant wait till brenn comes cuz maybe they'll leave me alone! well i'll write and tell yall how everything goes! i love you kameron! : ) buhbye